by Morgan Ramsey
So I want to share with you a story. But before we do anything, let’s get something straight. I’m going to use “I” a lot. But here’s the thing… This story has NOTHING to do with me. Crazy, I know. It may sound and look a lot like this is all about me, because from the world’s view that would be true. But this isn’t a story about a girl living in a messed up world. This is about a Savior who radically changed a messed up girl living all up in a messed up world.
So let’s start from the beginning. I grew up in a Christian home. My dad’s a minister at our local church where we’ve been attending since I was 7. When I was 14, I knew I needed Jesus desperately, so I surrendered my life to Him, and have never looked back a day in my life. When I was 15, through crazy circumstances that you can only attribute to Jesus, I knew God was calling me into something greater with my life. So Jesus laid missions on my heart. I KNOW. Like I had never been on a mission trip. I kind of laughed a little bit and I was like alright Lord, I don’t understand, but let’s go. So the Lord took me on a cool adventure with him through the next 6 years of my life. I was able to travel to Ecuador 5 times, spend 3 summers there, a summer in Uganda, and then week trips to Guatemala and Mexico.
So to fast forward a little bit and to summarize, God did such big things in my life. Every trip I went on gave me a clearer and clearer vision of what I wanted to do with my life. It was a cool growing time in my life. So December of last year, 2015, I graduated from college with a dual degree of History and Spanish under a major called “Global Studies”. Before I graduated, I heard about an opportunity that I couldn’t get out of my head: spend a semester in Greece to work with refugees. Another long story short, in February of 2016 I found myself fresh out of college and in Greece. I could write a book on everything that God taught me over there, but due to the word limit of this blog, I’m going to have to summarize. It was incredible, it was awesome, and it was more fantastic than I could have ever dreamt. And the biggest take away was,
Sometimes God places in us in strange, uncomfortable areas in our life where we think, ‘I am wasting my time. I can’t be effective here. God, are you sure about this, because I’m obviously not talented enough, charismatic enough, or Christ-like enough for this!’ But those are the areas where He uses us most. So He can be glorified, not us.
I know. Not the most awestruck thing you’ve ever heard in your life, but hey it was for me. So by the end of my time in Greece, I knew Jesus was calling me to something deeper, and something so different, but I just couldn’t figure out what it was. I tried to fill that hole before I came back to the States. (side-note, I knew this was coming, so I met with my college pastor before I left, and said SOS send help, pray for me because I’m FREAKING out about what I’m supposed to do after I come home). So while I was in Greece I met with organizations, prayed, met with more organizations, and ate plenty of figs and gelato, because that’s the only real remedy ladies.
Anyways, I thought I had it all figured out. I had met with a lady at an incredible organization and had planned to go to Germany for a year, to start a children’s ministry with some missionaries who worked with refugees. It looked great on the outside, but something was telling me, Morgan, as much as you loved working with refugees, didn’t you feel like this isn’t what God had for you for the rest of your life? It was incredible for a season; I just couldn’t do it for a year. But I kept telling myself, Sure you can, you can do anything you put your mind to. You see the problem here? There’s a whole lot of me, and nothing about Jesus.
I could never bring myself to write that email saying, “I’ll go to Germany.” So I went back to work at the place I had been at for the last 5 years. And to say I was unhappy would be an understatement. I was like – Really God? You told me to get ready for the next step and then now this? COME ON GET IT TOGETHER. Please tell me that selling books is not what I’m called to do for the rest of my life. But Jesus kept telling me, Morgan chill. Just wait. So I did. For two weeks.
And then I got a phone call. A phone call that really has changed my life, in more ways than I think I realize. It was from my youth pastor at our church. He asked me to come in to the student ministries office to talk about something. And I was completely clueless thinking, Okay, he probably wants to talk about my Greece trip. Nope. He asked me to consider being a summer intern for the student ministry at my church. And I remember thinking, Me?!? Whhhhaaaattttt??? So I said, “Okay but I’m almost 125% percent sure they are going to hate me and think I’m super weird because I can sing every lyric to any One Direction song.” He said something I’ll never forget, “Just try it. You’ll never know how much you may love it, unless you try it”.
And as usual, he was right. I love my girls. I love watching them fall in love with Jesus and eagerly following Him in every way possible. And if I’m being honest, they make me jealous, because I really wish that I searched after Jesus the way they do when I was in high school and middle school. So my summer started at, “uhh…. I’m not sure about this… when does it end again???” to at the end of the summer me saying, “PLEASE DON’T MAKE ME LEAVE”.
I know. I’m crazy. But these girls make me crazy by the way they love our Jesus.
So our girls’ minister left a couple of weeks ago because Jesus gave her two precious, precious babies. One adopted, and one that was due in October. And Jesus told her that it was time to minister to her own family, so she left in July. And what an incredible joy and honor it was for me to intern under her. She’s the best, and I’m not just saying that because I was the intern. She really does walk the walk. Really.
So fast-forward to August 16th. My internship was up. All I wanted was to love on these girls. I had to fully trust Jesus in a way that I had never trusted Him before. I told Jesus, “Lord you know I want more than anything to see your name lifted high, not Morgan Ramsey. And you keep telling me, ‘be faithful with the little and then you’ll be faithful with much’. So I’m trying to be faithful with my little. But Jesus, you know how much I want this job. But above all, whatever it looks like and whatever may come, I want your will over my life.”
Four hours later, I walked out of a meeting as my church’s new girls minister.
And I share this story not to say “wow look at all the things I’ve done”. Please re-read the beginning and if you still feel like I portrayed that it’s all about me, I give you complete permission to come up and slap me in the face. But gently ok?
I share this story to encourage YOU. This is written for the lady that just lost her job, and thinks her life is over. For the college student fresh out of graduation with nothing on the horizon. For the girl who has NO IDEA what she wants to do with her life. For the lady who just wants so desperately to be a mama. For the senior adult who thinks her life is over, and that she has nothing left to offer anyone. JESUS IS NEVER, EVER THROUGH WITH YOU. NEVER.
And sometimes the things that He calls you to are different from what you were expecting. If you would’ve told me a year ago that I would be in this position I would have laughed for a solid two minutes, and said no wrong girl. Because I felt and still do feel called to missions! But can I share something with you? Before she left, my girls’ minister told me, “Morgan, Jesus calls us into seasons. And sometimes those seasons are places where we never, ever thought we could go. And those are the seasons where He gets most glorified. And when you look back on your life twenty years from now, you are going to see how all of those seasons where you laughed and said ‘seriously God?’, brought you to where you will be. They will be all be connected, preparing you for the next season”.
So are you looking for the next season? Are you waiting, and waiting, and waiting for something in your life to happen? Has God answered you in a way that you are having a hard time grasping?
Delight yourself in the Lord, and He WILL give you the desires of your heart, just like it says in Psalms. But get ready. Because sometimes those desires look different from what you were expecting. Sometimes those desires will bring you to places you never thought you would go. Sometimes those unexpected desires will turn into the biggest blessings in your life. Sometimes those desires will look like investing in a younger girl, diving head first into ministry, serving the church more, or starting a new job where you think “what in the world am I doing here”.
And sometimes those desires look like a car full of high school girls piling into your car singing to the top of their lungs the newest One Direction song, headed to Bible Study. Not your desire? Well then, I’m completely content with it being mine.